Dan....

Aku jadi hilang arah, tidak karuan. Tidak pasti dengan apa yang berlaku pada diri ku ini. Saat dia hilang dari pandangan, aku tidak pasti apa yang sedang berlaku pada diriku……

Tika aku melihat wajahnya, segala-galanya berubah. Senyumannya membuatkan aku terasa dunia ini terlalu indah. Tutur katanya terlalu halus, terlalu jujur, disertai bait-bait merendah diri. Dia tidak pernah sekali membongkak diri, mendabik dada dengan apa yang ada. Mungkin kerana asasnya yang kukuh, membuatkan jati dirinya yang kukuh sebegitu. Senyumannya…. Aduhhh bisa membuatkan jantungku luruh, jam detikku berhenti seketika. Dan gemersik manja suaranya buatkan jantungku berdegup pantas….

Benar, aku amat mencintainya. Amat-amat mencintainya. Pun begitu aku cuba untuk menghindari dari dia mengetahui perasaanku. Aku takut pada diri sendiri. Aku takut untuk terus disakiti, apatah lagi untuk dikhianati. Aku cuba untuk tidak kerap berhubung dengannya. Dan aku terus mencuba…..

Jauh di sudut hati, ku tanamkan perasaan bahwa dia terlalu istimewa untuk insan biasa seperti ku. Ku tahu bukanlah tempatku untuk berdiri disisinya, duduk semeja bergelak ketawa bersamanya. Ku tahu tiada tempat untuk diri ku ini dalam hati nya. Dan aku cuba sematkan ingatan ini erat-erat di mindaku, agar aku tidak sekali-kali alpa….

Namun, manusia hanya mampu berbicara pada diri, dan tiada yang pasti dalam bicara mereka. Tiada siapa yang tahu apa yang akan dihadapinya di masa mendatang. Walaupun dia cuba untuk kuat, namun segalanya tidak pasti untuk dia….

Kini aku di sini, melihat sekeliling dalam menikmati keindahan alam ciptaan Tuhan. Mengagumi kebijaksanaan-Nya mencipta alam yang terlalu indah untuk umat manusia diami. Sambil untuk cuba meredakan keresahan jiwaku ini. Yang tidak pernah surutnya. Kadang-kala aku sendiri takut untuk bangun pada esok hari, takut jika aku akan terus dikecewakan lagi. Takut jika kemurungan akan menguasai jiwa ini lagi; takut untuk kebencian terus bersarang di kalbu ini….

Dan aku amat mencintainya; namun adakah dia jua mencintai ku?

Deep Conversation

Yeah I know I have caused her only pain and sorrow. I took her time that she should spend with her hubby love. It’s not good; to me, to her and to her love. *sigh*

Well after considering the situation I believe it’s time now for me to leave. To pack my things and say goodbye. And I shall learn how to die…

Alone...

I tried to be strong…..
But I failed….
I am weak…
And now I am left alone….
In the darkness….
Heading to nowhere…..

Dingin Malam....

Tuhan…. Hari yang berlalu masih kosong, tanpa sebarang erti. Jalan yang dilaluinya penuh dengan ranjau, duri di sekelilingnya membuatkan dia lemah tidak bermaya untuk meneruskan perjalanan itu. Pun begitu masih digagahkan jua dirinya, walaupun hakikatnya jauh di sudut hati dia tahu yang jalan itu tiada pengakhirannya.

Malam itu langit cerah. Bersertakan angin sepoi-sepoi bahasa, berlalu dan bermain dengan anak rambutnya. Cuaca dan keadaan yang indah, nyaman, dan permai. Namun tidak se-enak jiwanya, yang terus bergelumang dengan pelbagai perasaan dan rasa. Racau dan kacau, mungkin itulah perkataan yang sesuai untuk mentafsirkannya…

“Hmmm…. Sampai bilalah kau harus menempuh perasaan sebegini Iff. Jiwa kau yang akan menderita. Tapi orang tidak tahu. Orang tidak pernah ambil peduli. Ko kena kuat Iff…..”
“Ko senanglah cakap Syah, tapi ada ko cuba faham perasaan aku nie? Aku tak pernah mintak semua nie lah Syah. Dia datang sendiri. Ko ingat aku tak waras ke, nak mintak benda-benda yang akhirnya aku tahu hanya akan merosakkan jiwa dan kebahagiaan aku sendiri??!!”

Secara tiba-tiba suasana menjadi tegang, dan tiada jawapan yang mampu diberikan untuk persoalan itu…

“Ya memang ko cakap ko tak pernah mintak. Tapi tue cakap mulut ko, cakap hati dan tindakan ko lain Iff….”
“Dahlah Syah, kalau ko datang sini just nak sakitkan hati aku, nak tambah beban aku, baik ko blah lah. Ko kawan aku Syah, dari kecil sampai besar. Ko tahu perangai aku, tapi bila aku macam nie, bila aku susah ko tak pernah nak faham perasaan aku, ko tak pernah nak cuba bantu aku. Malah ko selalu nak salahkan aku kan. Ko baliklah Syah…..”

Diam…. Tiada jawapan. Setenang alam sekeliling. Dan akhirnya dia berlalu pergi, meninggalkan temannya keseorangan….

'Cinta Gila'

I can hear her heart beat for a thousand miles

And the heavens open every time she smiles

And when I come to her that’s where I belong

Yet I’m running to her like a rivers song

She gives me love, love, love, love, crazy love

She gives me love, love, love, love, crazy love

She’s got a fine sense of humour when I’m feeling low down

And when I come to her when the sun goes down

Take away my trouble, take away my grief

Take away my heartache, in the night like a thief

She gives me love, love, love, love, crazy love

She gives me love, love, love, love, crazy love
She gives me love, love, love, love, crazy love

She gives me love, love, love, love, crazy love

Yes I need her in the daytime

Yes I need her in the night

Yes I want to throw my arms around her

Kiss her hug her kiss her hug her tight

And when I’m returning from so far away

She gives me some sweet loving brighten up my day

Yes it makes me righteous, yes it makes me feel whole

Yes it makes me mellow down in to my soul

She gives me love, love, love, love, crazy love

She gives me love, love, love, love, crazy love

Abu Raihan al-Biruni

Abu Raihan Mohammad Ibn Ahmad al-Biruni was one of the well-known figures associated with the court of King Mahmood Ghaznawi, who was one of the famous Muslim kings of the 11th century A.D. Al-Biruni was a versatile scholar and scientist who had equal facility in physics, metaphysics, mathematics, geography and history. Born in the city of Kheva near “Ural” in 973 A.D., he was a contemporary of the well-known physician Ibn Sina. At an early age, the fame of his scholarship went around and when Sultan Mahmood Ghaznawi conquered his homeland, he took al-Biruni along with him in his journeys to India several times and thus he had the opportunity to travel all over India during a period of 20 years. He learnt Hindu philosophy, mathematics, geography and religion from three Pandits to whom he taught Greek and Arabic science and philosophy. He died in 1048 A.D. at the age of 75, after having spent 40 years in thus gathering knowledge and making his own original contributions to it.

He recorded observations of his travels through India in his well-known book Kitab al-Hind which gives a graphic account of the historical and social conditions of the sub-continent. At the end of this book he makes a mention of having translated two Sanskrit books into Arabic, one called Sakaya, which deals with the creation of things and their types, and the second, Patanjal dealing with what happens after the spirit leaves the body. His descriptions of India were so complete that even the Aein-i-Akbari written by Abu al-Fadal during the reign of Akbar, 600 years later, owes a great deal to al-Biruni’s book. He observed that the Indus valley must be considered as an ancient sea basin filled up with alluvial.

On his return from India, al-Biruni wrote his famous book Qanun-i Masoodi (al-Qanun al-Masudi, fi al-Hai’a wa al-Nujum), which he dedicated to Sultan Masood. The book discusses several theorems of astronomy, trigonometry, solar, lunar, and planetary motions and relative topics. In another well-known book al-Athar al-Baqia, he has attempted a connected account of ancient history of nations and the related geographical knowledge. In this book, he has discussed the rotation of the earth and has given correct values of latitudes and longitudes of various places. He has also made considerable contribution to several aspects of physical and economic geography in this book.

His other scientific contributions include the accurate determination of the densities of 18 different stones. He also wrote the Kitab al-Saidana, which is an extensive materia medica that combines the then existing Arabic knowledge on the subject with the Indian medicine. His book the Kitab al-Jamahir deals with the properties of various precious stones. He was also an astrologer and is reputed to have astonished people by the accuracy of his predictions. He gave a clear account of Hindu numerals, elaborating the principle of position.

He developed a method for trisection of angle and other problems which cannot be solved with a ruler and a compass alone. Al-Biruni discussed, centuries before the rest of the world, the question whether the earth rotates around its axis or not. He was the first to undertake experiments related to astronomical phenomena. His scientific method, taken together with that of other Muslim scientists, such as Ibn al-Haitham, laid down the early foundation of modern science. He ascertained that as compared with the speed of sound the speed of light is immense. He explained the working of natural springs and artesian wells by the hydrostatic principle of communicating vessels. His investigations included description of various monstrosities, including that known as “Siamese” twins. He observed that flowers have 3, 4, 5, 6, or 18 petals, but never 7 or 9.

He wrote a number of books and treatises. Apart from Kitab-al- Hind (History and Geography of India), al-Qanun al-Masudi (Astro- nomy, Trigonometry), al-Athar al-Baqia (Ancient History and Geography), Kitab al-Saidana (Materia Medica) and Kitab al-Jawahir (Precious Stones) as mentioned above, his book al-Tafhim-li-Awail Sina’at al-Tanjim gives a summary of mathematics and astronomy.

He has been considered as one of the very greatest scientists of Islam, and, all considered, one of the greatest of all times. His critical spirit, love of truth, and scientific approach were combined with a sense of toleration. His enthusiasm for knowledge may be judged from his claim that the phrase Allah is Omniscient does not justify ignorance.

Pujian Buat Ibn Abd al-Wahhab

Dr. Yusuf al-Qaradhawi dalam kitabnya Fiqh al-Awlawiyyat memuji Muhammad bin Abdul Wahhab katanya: “Bagi al-Imam Muhammad bin Abdul Wahhab di Jazirah Arab perkara aqidah adalah menjadi keutamaanya untuk memelihara benteng tauhid dari syirik yang telah mencemari pancaran tauhid dan dikotori kesuciannya. Beliau telah menulis buku-buku dan risalah-risalah dalam perkara tersebut. Beliau bangkit menaggung bebanan secara dakwah dan praktikal dalam memusnahkan gambaran-gambaran syirik.”

Dr. Wahbah al-Zuhaili memuji Muhammad bin Abdul Wahhab dengan berkata: “Sesuatu yang tidak syak padanya, menyedari hakikat yang sebenar, bukan untuk meredhakan sesiapa, berpegang kepada ayat al-Quran yang agung (maksudnya) “Jangan kamu kurangkan manusia apa yang menjadi hak-haknya”. (surah Hud:85) bahawa suara kebenaran yang paling berani, pendakwah yang terbesar untuk islah (pembaikan) membina umat, jihad dan mengembalikan individu Muslim kepada berpegang dengan jalan salafus soleh yang terbesar ialah dakwah Muhammad bin Abdul Wahhab pada kurun yang ke 12 hijrah. Tujuannya adalah untuk mentajdidkan kehidupan muslim, setelah secara umum dicemari dengan pelbagai khilaf, kekeliruan, bid’ah dan penyelewengan. Maka Muhammad bin Abdul Wahhab ialah pemimpin kebangkitan agama dan pembaikan (islah) yang dinantikan, yang menzahir timbangan aqidah yang bersih.”